I haven't done this for a while...
Hi, Hello.
I haven't done this for a while, I guess you could tell that from the header of this post.
Lately, I feel completely lost, I don't feel like I'm Me anymore. Now don't get Me wrong, my daughter is my WORLD and I'm so grateful I have her, she's a blessing. But can someone tell me why kids test your marriage so much? why they literally have to be at your feet every second of the day? Like really, I can turn off Paw Patrol because she won't be watching it and she will lose her tiny mind! WHY? YOU AREN'T EVEN WATCHING IT!
Anyway, that's not why I'm here today.
If anyone is reading, please, help me out. I love my girl and I can tell she's lonely and in desperate need for a sibling. That and she tells me she wants a sister every 12 hours. My husband wants another baby too, is it wrong that I don't feel the same?
I had a rough pregnancy, I'm eternally grateful I was lucky enough to have a baby myself but shit, it was tough. Mentally and physically. It almost destroyed me. I'm still somewhat paying for it now.
Side note; why is it parents or mothers rather, cant or aren't allowed to complain about how hard they found pregnancy without getting "well at least you can get pregnant!" My heart breaks for people who struggle with fertility, carrying and having a child its such an indescribable experience but please, stop making me feel bad because I hated every minute of it. It's my right.
I'm side tracking, but what I'm trying to say is mothers; old and new, how did you handle your feelings (if you had them) of not really wanting a second child but carrying the guilt of it? and just to throw a curve ball, randomly having moments of wanting another but swiftly changing your mind back because well, Anxiety.
I'm conflicted, terrified and stressed all rolled into one, and as a Counsellor whose almost finished their training I should be able to answer this question alone.
I don't know, welcome back to my world and please help...
I haven't done this for a while, I guess you could tell that from the header of this post.
Lately, I feel completely lost, I don't feel like I'm Me anymore. Now don't get Me wrong, my daughter is my WORLD and I'm so grateful I have her, she's a blessing. But can someone tell me why kids test your marriage so much? why they literally have to be at your feet every second of the day? Like really, I can turn off Paw Patrol because she won't be watching it and she will lose her tiny mind! WHY? YOU AREN'T EVEN WATCHING IT!
Anyway, that's not why I'm here today.
If anyone is reading, please, help me out. I love my girl and I can tell she's lonely and in desperate need for a sibling. That and she tells me she wants a sister every 12 hours. My husband wants another baby too, is it wrong that I don't feel the same?
I had a rough pregnancy, I'm eternally grateful I was lucky enough to have a baby myself but shit, it was tough. Mentally and physically. It almost destroyed me. I'm still somewhat paying for it now.
Side note; why is it parents or mothers rather, cant or aren't allowed to complain about how hard they found pregnancy without getting "well at least you can get pregnant!" My heart breaks for people who struggle with fertility, carrying and having a child its such an indescribable experience but please, stop making me feel bad because I hated every minute of it. It's my right.
I'm side tracking, but what I'm trying to say is mothers; old and new, how did you handle your feelings (if you had them) of not really wanting a second child but carrying the guilt of it? and just to throw a curve ball, randomly having moments of wanting another but swiftly changing your mind back because well, Anxiety.
I'm conflicted, terrified and stressed all rolled into one, and as a Counsellor whose almost finished their training I should be able to answer this question alone.
I don't know, welcome back to my world and please help...
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